2005-03-28 - 1:48 a.m.
well i know it has been a while since i have been on here but i guess things were going better for me than i thought but i was wrong.... so to update everyone real quick i guess i kinda fell for this guy who was a friend of mine but i should have know better, we were spending a lot of time together talking on the phone alot getting to know each other alot but come to find out he actually has a crush on my best friend....aint that some shit! well my best friend is kinda feeling him so i guess now they are going to be getting together soon, my friend asked me what he should do should he leave him alone because i had feeling for him but that is selfish i couldn't tell him yes that would just be wrong, right? well i guess i'm a lone again as usual i should be accustomed to this by now, why can't i seem to find anyone? why am i always alone, sometimes i think there is just something i can't see about me that people see through....
i don't even think that my "friends" really care sometimes, it seems that i am only the mediator, they only call me when they need to talk about something they never really want to hear what is going on in my life they don't care, all these "friends" and i feel so secluded, no one understands
maybe i am meant to be by myself, i should just give up and move on....
